the first blog of my life..

okay..to be absolutely honest, i have NO idea how to start writing a blog.  i mean i know i want to 'blog', i just don't now how to do it. yeah, of course you just write about whatever you feel like but....actually you know what? never-mind.. its just that its my first blog. and if i continue writing here then after a while when i look back into this, am more than sure that i would like to erase every trace of crap that am writing right now. that's basically what i do everywhere.

okay so i guess i should introduce myself...or, should i? eh..who cares!


oh, my mom just sent me a picture in whatsapp with my cousin and aunt, where i swear my cousin's eyes were shining with white light ( ??? uhh... ._.) . you know what that means right? she is a fucking SHAPE-SHIFTER!!!!!
yeah. i am cracked. and i accept it. proudly.

exactly how did i end up writing that? man, am so disoriented. well, lucky for me, no one is ever going to read my shit so.. yay!
i am so not making any sense. i m sure i can do better than this. what am i doing?


okay let me just stick to the script.

i am a 3rd year architecture student from India. i grew up in kolkata which is really an amazing place to grow up in, if u ignore the enormous blanket of pollutants that cover the city or the spectacular display of garbage in every other lane and many other things for that matter. but in all seriousness, they were definitely the best years of my life. after high school, i left home for college and ended up in Cuttack.

sometimes it so happens that you are driving through a road which is so beautiful and the ride, so satisfying that you realize that this particular moment, is the best that 'life' can offer and you just want the road to never end....and then, Dead End! a BIG 'full stop' to your dreams, aspirations and ever imaginative fantasies.

This was exactly what i experienced when i landed up in Cuttack because it was (is and always will be) the exact opposite of what i had in mind when i thought about college from my desk back home. in fact it was not even an 'opposite' since i hadn't even explored this as a possibility. even after staying here for 3 goddamn years, if any one asks me to say one good thing about cuttack,...well i really fail to come up with anything vaguely positive. although i must add that had it not been for this god-forsaken college, i would probably not have met those three awesome assholes, who are also my roommates!
silver lining, huh?

as for my hobbies, well i read. and am a BIG time Potterhead.

oh and huge shout-out to my favourite author for her birthday:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY J. K. ROWLING and HARRY POTTER, the boy who lived!

come to think about it, it was really a good day to start my blog!

back to the point: hobbies. reading (as i said already) . what else... well i like watching youtube videos, does that count? (ryan higa, OMG!!) hobbies are actually very tricky. i learnt to dance Bharatnatyam and i guess i am not too bad at it (thats me being modest...and i totally ruined it, didnt i?) but then thats not something anyone will see me doing on any given day. so i guess that doesnt count as a hobby either. next, i took singing lessons as well and yes i do hum some tune or the other throughout the day, so i dont know. i listen to music a lot, so thats definitely a hobby of mine. as for writing, i do that mostly when am at an absolutely distraught state ( though its not the case right now..but then again i did say 'mostly' which is not equal to 'always'...yeah i better not..yeah..) which is basically why i wanted to start blogging because otherwise the only time i make the effort to bring out my diary (did i mention that i am ridiculously lazy?) is when am at my absolute worst and the entries are so full of pessimism that it hurts when i read it later.

well, i ended up writing way more than i had anticipated. and am actually feeling quite good about it. as for my random, bizarre and totally disoriented style of writing, i can assure you (whoever 'you' are, who is most likely to be no one so..may be 'you' is Blogger! yeah! in fact i address my diary all the time, so this makes sense!) that it isn't deliberate. it's just how my brain works. .. cant help it. so you can imagine now how difficult it was for me to write formal essays back in school! so not good with formal stuffs! goes for clothes as well. basically i am the very definition of informal. and lazy!

in all honesty though, i have no idea how this whole blogging thing works. does anyone, like, read your blogs? do you follow people or something? i mean not follow some'thing' but you know 'follow' or something? okay i guess i have gone back to the state where i do not make any sense anymore. guess this is my cue to quit writing!

until next time then!