Random Rants..
"i try not to put all my secrets in one basket, especially one basket that dangles on the arms of Lord Voldemort all the times"-quote by Professor Dumbledore to Professor Snape.
(fair reminder: i may not have got all the words right since i am writing it from my memory and my conscious brain has limited access to the enormously varied lanes of my memory. but you do get the idea right?)
THAT is perhaps my favourite line, "the prince's tale" being my favourite chapter, and "the deathly hallows" being my favourite book from the whole series.
it just got me thinking. if harry could get so devastated by dumledore's truth about his youth (what with his "relationship" with grindelwald and his plans for the "greater good" and all), what had Snape gone through? did he doubt Dumbledore's priorities or motives? the fact that Dumbledore was ready to sacrifice Harry to kill Lord Voldemort ("greater good", get it?) without a trace of sympathy or morose (since Snape didn't know that Harry was the last Horcrux), how must he had felt? did he feel betrayed?
i guess if he did, he went to Dumbledore's portrait who in turn cleared his doubts with some wise words, like/a/boss!
nevertheless, it made me realize how much i want to know Snape's side of the story. not just what he had done for harry, but his whole thought-process. having to live to protect a boy who's face he despised, as it was ridiculously similar to his father whom he loathed, with an exception of his eyes, which were the only reminder of his cowardice for giving Lily away. and all the ungrateful words that he had to endure from him and his friends ever since harry stepped into hogwarts.
maybe he took them as a penance for his deed. i don't know. but i wish i could know for certain. i mean we can speculate and read and write fan-fictions and maybe a part of us know for certain that 'this' is what he felt but somehow i wish Rowling would write about. only then will i be satisfied i guess.
sometimes when i feel under-appreciated and unimportant and underestimated, i try to put myself in his shoes. and i can not, for the world of it, understand how he could survive that way! because i feel like leaving everything and taking my recluse somewhere far Far from humanity. what did he like do to get rid of his frustrations? oh right he was a wizard. thats just it isnt it?? Magic is all u need to be alive. that's it. what am i even doing here? let me just take my recluse already. no one will miss me anyway.
and may be when i am at it, i could learn to do the cup thing with the Cups (i can do the handshake btw. ultimate handshake to the ryan higa's version of the cup song) and sing to it! don't i love me-time!! :)
THAT is perhaps my favourite line, "the prince's tale" being my favourite chapter, and "the deathly hallows" being my favourite book from the whole series.
it just got me thinking. if harry could get so devastated by dumledore's truth about his youth (what with his "relationship" with grindelwald and his plans for the "greater good" and all), what had Snape gone through? did he doubt Dumbledore's priorities or motives? the fact that Dumbledore was ready to sacrifice Harry to kill Lord Voldemort ("greater good", get it?) without a trace of sympathy or morose (since Snape didn't know that Harry was the last Horcrux), how must he had felt? did he feel betrayed?
i guess if he did, he went to Dumbledore's portrait who in turn cleared his doubts with some wise words, like/a/boss!
nevertheless, it made me realize how much i want to know Snape's side of the story. not just what he had done for harry, but his whole thought-process. having to live to protect a boy who's face he despised, as it was ridiculously similar to his father whom he loathed, with an exception of his eyes, which were the only reminder of his cowardice for giving Lily away. and all the ungrateful words that he had to endure from him and his friends ever since harry stepped into hogwarts.
maybe he took them as a penance for his deed. i don't know. but i wish i could know for certain. i mean we can speculate and read and write fan-fictions and maybe a part of us know for certain that 'this' is what he felt but somehow i wish Rowling would write about. only then will i be satisfied i guess.
sometimes when i feel under-appreciated and unimportant and underestimated, i try to put myself in his shoes. and i can not, for the world of it, understand how he could survive that way! because i feel like leaving everything and taking my recluse somewhere far Far from humanity. what did he like do to get rid of his frustrations? oh right he was a wizard. thats just it isnt it?? Magic is all u need to be alive. that's it. what am i even doing here? let me just take my recluse already. no one will miss me anyway.
and may be when i am at it, i could learn to do the cup thing with the Cups (i can do the handshake btw. ultimate handshake to the ryan higa's version of the cup song) and sing to it! don't i love me-time!! :)
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