Empty Resolutions
Today i did two things :-
i) Finished watching Marvel's Daredevil
ii) Saw this movie called "Death of A Superhero"
(well, technically they fall under the same category of work, i know, but you know what i mean)
what they had in common is that both the protagonists had some unfortunate physical shortcomings.
now i know what you are going to say, Daredevil is a superhero and the savior of the Hell's Kitchen and Boy! Can he kick some arse! i get it, i absolutely do, but that doesn't change the fact that he is blind and that sucks for him no matter how awesome he turned out to be. part of why he became this awesome in the first place was because he got blind, because he chose to do something about his shortcoming, and of course it helped that it was some radioactive substance that made him blind and in turn heightened all his other senses. but that's just what fiction is right?
And in the other movie, this guy, Donald (played by the very good-looking Thomas Brodie Sangster), was suffering from cancer and was a brilliant artist. there is this scene in the movie where his girlfriend (of sorts) tells him, "i would give anything to have a talent like that." well, i couldn't agree more!
For the last couple of weeks, i have been feeling a bit inadequate and useless and a wastage of space and resources.
Actually, scratch that.
Ever since i stepped inside Cuttack, i have been feeling a bit inadequate and useless and a wastage of space and resources.
Its like i am trapped inside this cocoon that i can not break through. it's like the whole city is under some Genjutsu where everyone is under the false pretense of happiness, unprofessionalism, non-productivity, utmost laziness and far removed from the real world. and it is so strong that you can't just yell "Release" and pop the bubble. wait, so does that mean that someone has successfully cast limited Tsukuyomi over Cuttack? Because that would explain tonnes of things that make no sense otherwise. ...okay may be i am getting a bit carried away by my Naruto fever, so back to the point then.
now, you might be thinking what my problem is if everyone is ultimately happy, make-belief or not. problem is when you are stuck in the 1960s while the rest of the world is living in 2015, it is not OKAY anymore!
Back home a lot of stress was given on learning new things, honing one's expertise over something, remaining up-to-date with the world, etc. in short, remaining PRODUCTIVE throughout the day. but in the last 3 years the only thing i have learnt is how to get lazy-er, which is obviously not a talent whatsoever. and i am sick of it. there are crap load of things that i want to do with my life that are miles apart from architecture. my parents keep saying that i should concentrate on my studies only for now as i have the rest of my life to do those things but, do i? if i can't learn anything in my college life, how in the world can i expect to learn new things while doing a job? i know far too well how difficult and complicated my life is going to get after college, so am i really supposed to believe that i can do anything then when i can't right now?
so next question is, why am i blaming Cuttack if my problem is really with my parents. it's because of the lack of opportunities. simple as that. and because "Cuttack" is my Punching bag! if anything goes wrong with my life, eh just blame it on Cuttack!
"Man, my head hurts! Damn you Cuttack!", "Sasuke, why you being such an asshole? DAMN YOU CUTTACK!!" get the drift?
When i started college i was so full of energy and resolutions that it hurts now to even think about it. it took me three years to realise how far my life is from what i envisioned it to be. So many dreams, down the drain. and i am sick of feeling sorry for myself. i am a perfectly healthy and capable person for crying out loud! and that is not something that Matthew Murdock and Donald Clarke could say for themselves!
Its high time i take the wheel and start driving my life in the desired direction.
even to me, it sounds like 'all talk and no work'. this is just sad! its like i can't even trust myself till i Actually start doing something to change my situation. DAMN YOU CUTTACK!!!!
here's hoping that i can successfully get out of this labyrinth and ASAP.
until next time then!
i) Finished watching Marvel's Daredevil
ii) Saw this movie called "Death of A Superhero"
(well, technically they fall under the same category of work, i know, but you know what i mean)
what they had in common is that both the protagonists had some unfortunate physical shortcomings.
now i know what you are going to say, Daredevil is a superhero and the savior of the Hell's Kitchen and Boy! Can he kick some arse! i get it, i absolutely do, but that doesn't change the fact that he is blind and that sucks for him no matter how awesome he turned out to be. part of why he became this awesome in the first place was because he got blind, because he chose to do something about his shortcoming, and of course it helped that it was some radioactive substance that made him blind and in turn heightened all his other senses. but that's just what fiction is right?
And in the other movie, this guy, Donald (played by the very good-looking Thomas Brodie Sangster), was suffering from cancer and was a brilliant artist. there is this scene in the movie where his girlfriend (of sorts) tells him, "i would give anything to have a talent like that." well, i couldn't agree more!
For the last couple of weeks, i have been feeling a bit inadequate and useless and a wastage of space and resources.
Actually, scratch that.
Ever since i stepped inside Cuttack, i have been feeling a bit inadequate and useless and a wastage of space and resources.
Its like i am trapped inside this cocoon that i can not break through. it's like the whole city is under some Genjutsu where everyone is under the false pretense of happiness, unprofessionalism, non-productivity, utmost laziness and far removed from the real world. and it is so strong that you can't just yell "Release" and pop the bubble. wait, so does that mean that someone has successfully cast limited Tsukuyomi over Cuttack? Because that would explain tonnes of things that make no sense otherwise. ...okay may be i am getting a bit carried away by my Naruto fever, so back to the point then.
now, you might be thinking what my problem is if everyone is ultimately happy, make-belief or not. problem is when you are stuck in the 1960s while the rest of the world is living in 2015, it is not OKAY anymore!
Back home a lot of stress was given on learning new things, honing one's expertise over something, remaining up-to-date with the world, etc. in short, remaining PRODUCTIVE throughout the day. but in the last 3 years the only thing i have learnt is how to get lazy-er, which is obviously not a talent whatsoever. and i am sick of it. there are crap load of things that i want to do with my life that are miles apart from architecture. my parents keep saying that i should concentrate on my studies only for now as i have the rest of my life to do those things but, do i? if i can't learn anything in my college life, how in the world can i expect to learn new things while doing a job? i know far too well how difficult and complicated my life is going to get after college, so am i really supposed to believe that i can do anything then when i can't right now?
so next question is, why am i blaming Cuttack if my problem is really with my parents. it's because of the lack of opportunities. simple as that. and because "Cuttack" is my Punching bag! if anything goes wrong with my life, eh just blame it on Cuttack!
"Man, my head hurts! Damn you Cuttack!", "Sasuke, why you being such an asshole? DAMN YOU CUTTACK!!" get the drift?
When i started college i was so full of energy and resolutions that it hurts now to even think about it. it took me three years to realise how far my life is from what i envisioned it to be. So many dreams, down the drain. and i am sick of feeling sorry for myself. i am a perfectly healthy and capable person for crying out loud! and that is not something that Matthew Murdock and Donald Clarke could say for themselves!
Its high time i take the wheel and start driving my life in the desired direction.
even to me, it sounds like 'all talk and no work'. this is just sad! its like i can't even trust myself till i Actually start doing something to change my situation. DAMN YOU CUTTACK!!!!
here's hoping that i can successfully get out of this labyrinth and ASAP.
until next time then!
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