Life of an opinionated introvert
Life is a struggle regardless of who you are. But I don't claim to know everyone so I'll just speak for myself.
There have been many situations where I let my ears bleed profusely due to some moronic conversations around me instead of contributing insightfully. Now I cannot deny that part of the reason why I let these situations 'slide' is because I am a XX. Because my opinions tend to get flushed down the commode anyway, so I have to ask myself if it really is worth it.
But there are other times where the aforementioned issue isn't applicable and yet my voice go MIA. So what do I do? I conconct theories in my head to rationalize my action. May be I need more research to back my notion. May be I will hurt their feelings if I contradict them. What if I seem too cocky, 'cause I tend to be when I'm making a point right? What if I lose my temper and go all Harley Quinn at them? And although -
I'd figure it is better to sit this one out. And the next one. And the next one after that. And so on...
Suffice to say, that I chicken out. Everytime. What follows is a lengthy process of self-loathing followed by making up situations which I handle better in my head, tonnes of promises that this is not going to happen again, get a 'speak up' tattoo (or atleast plan to), and more self-loathing.
Bottom line, it just boils my freaking blood!
So I have come to accept that I hate confrontations. I have opinions that I cannot let out and also this much of anger is clinically bad for a human body. Straight up I need to vent. And I don't need an audience for it!
I mean honestly if I'm going to be categorized as the "feminist type" everytime I open my mouth(yes, I'm not trying to draw drama, but it happens..a lot), it doesn't really help my case. If you're automatically going to rule my opinion off, I'd rather write them !
The way I see it, my life is going to look somewhat like this:
Or else I'd have to come up with something else...
I wonder how other people deal with this kind of stuff đŸ’ If anybody magically stumbles upon my crap, do let me know! I could do with some help đŸ˜–
Until then, Live a little ✌
:(:
There have been many situations where I let my ears bleed profusely due to some moronic conversations around me instead of contributing insightfully. Now I cannot deny that part of the reason why I let these situations 'slide' is because I am a XX. Because my opinions tend to get flushed down the commode anyway, so I have to ask myself if it really is worth it.
But there are other times where the aforementioned issue isn't applicable and yet my voice go MIA. So what do I do? I conconct theories in my head to rationalize my action. May be I need more research to back my notion. May be I will hurt their feelings if I contradict them. What if I seem too cocky, 'cause I tend to be when I'm making a point right? What if I lose my temper and go all Harley Quinn at them? And although -
Suffice to say, that I chicken out. Everytime. What follows is a lengthy process of self-loathing followed by making up situations which I handle better in my head, tonnes of promises that this is not going to happen again, get a 'speak up' tattoo (or atleast plan to), and more self-loathing.
So I have come to accept that I hate confrontations. I have opinions that I cannot let out and also this much of anger is clinically bad for a human body. Straight up I need to vent. And I don't need an audience for it!
I mean honestly if I'm going to be categorized as the "feminist type" everytime I open my mouth(yes, I'm not trying to draw drama, but it happens..a lot), it doesn't really help my case. If you're automatically going to rule my opinion off, I'd rather write them !
Wake up, be around people, let your ears bleed, dab them with patience, come back home, roast the shit out of the situation over here!Let's see how this work out!
Or else I'd have to come up with something else...
I wonder how other people deal with this kind of stuff đŸ’ If anybody magically stumbles upon my crap, do let me know! I could do with some help đŸ˜–
Until then, Live a little ✌
:(:
Comments
Post a Comment